I Thought Of

preparing
a feast for you
send them over
make you feel
you are remembered

but then again
i thought
that would be
taxing and quite
unnecessary

and so
i resolved
to hold
my peace

Pain Tolerance

i’ve got a high
pain tolerance

— she says

a mantra
she repeatedly
uttered
until
she fully
believed it herself

her body
on the other hand
aims to disprove
her claims

Glasshouse

lately
i had been
very entitled
and sensitive
as to how
i want people
to listen to my stories

i am starting
to build on
the mentality
of what i deserve
or what should
people give me
based on
all the things
i had given them

i wanted my actions
to get reciprocated
so badly
that in any moment
i felt ignored
or was not given
the right attention
i had in mind
i get really upset
and distant

and as i continue
holding on
to these expectations
i am constantly
planting resentment
against people
i truly care for

with this
i knew
the glasshouse
that is my heart
is slowly rotting

when we only care
too much
about ourselves
when we only see
what pains us
when we only crave
for getting
what we deserve
based on what
we gave out —
that’s when we
start to deterioarate

how do we
overcome this

we acknowledge
our emotions
and feel them
we play out
all these
irrational thoughts
inside our heads
and face them

it is never
an easy feat
it takes courage
to get out of the rot
than willingly
be drowned in it

as for our
never ending
expectations of people
W.H. Auden once said l
you shall love
your crooked neighbor
with your crooked heart

in the final analysis
we are all bound
to hurt one another
whether intentionally
or otherwise

having
the valiant ability
to forgive
is a character
given to those
who are eager
to receive the same

The Point

maybe
the point of
surrender
is the start
of our real
journey to faith

Rain Boots For the Day

each one of us
is longing for a recognition
one way or another

and i am happy
because the rain
this afternoon
affirmed my decision
of wearing rain boots
for the day

i am glad that
the weather cooperated
with the level
of my effort
and recognized the need
for my assumptions
to be correct

Narratives You Didn’t Ask For

while kids dream of
being a doctor
or a lawyer
or a business owner

my only dream
when i was young
was to be
a home-maker

fast forward to
the current pandemic era
i came to realize
how i am not fit
for that role
my sanity will escape me
if i will only be
staying at home

but well
of course
it could still change
depending on
future variables

we’ll see

Running Out of Patience

what’s taking you
so long

i am dying
from this pain

can you
please
save me
already

Resolution

i have resolved to
sleep early

i needed
to detach myself
from my expectations
of people
and the world

and the lack of
communication
from people
and the world

Forged Relationship

lately
i discovered that
i am most joyful
whenever my hands
are busy making

it’s my first time
meeting with
Mr. Dough today

it was
a rough start
but i am eager
to make it work

Maximum People

one morning
a mom named Del
is challenging her son
to do some Math exercises

she gave him the range
of the minimum items
he could answer
to the maximum problems
he could solve

Cooper, her son
thought out loud
and said
“i’ll just finish solving
my minimum requirement”

when Del heard this
she sat her son down
and talked to him —

Cooper, she said,
if you will only be
solving the minimum
when you can solve for
the maximum items
then, you are limiting
your potential

you owe it to yourself
not to limit your potential
we are not minimum people
we are maximum people

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Heard this from a local podcast that I listen to 🙂